I used to feel like Peter Pan, who watched Wendy Darling play with her family. "There could not have been a lovelier sight; but there was none to see it except a little boy who was staring in at the window. He had ecstasies innumerable that other children can never know; but he was looking through the window at the one joy from which he must be forever barred" (J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan).

I felt barred from the happiness that comes from family simply because I was gay because that's what I learned growing up as a Mormon. I have since come to know that I am not barred from this happiness, and that I can have all the joys associated with family.

Monday, February 1, 2010

Dreamed to be Complete

Part of receiving my diploma means announcing my engagement to Michael! We are to be married in June in Cape Cod! I'm so excited! We have been together since early November, 2007, not too long after I started this blog. I don't know who's still reading this blog--I assume most of you are people who know me, and so this won't come as a surprise. For those of you that don't know me in person or who haven't heard the news yet, surprise!

I have found that there is no greater fulfillment than the fulfillment of companionship. My relationship and all of its ups and downs have made me a better person. To willfully deny someone the opportunity to experience this or to pursue it is cruel. To those of you who are unsure of your path or who haven't decided where to go, I advise you to try to find a companion. I realize that everyone's needs and personalities are different. Celibacy may satisfy some. But there is something wonderful and beautiful about romantic companionship that you cannot get any other way. Life isn't perfect. The honeymoon wore off a while ago. But at the end of the day, I have a better half that seems to make up for all of my shortcomings. At the end of the day, I have someone to hold and to love and to cherish. I have someone else to worry about and plan for and hope for and encourage and inspire. It's not about me, anymore, it's about us, and that makes me a better person.

3 comments:

playasinmar said...

Congrats!

austin said...

As one of the (few?) people who read your blog but don't know you in person, I also say congratulations!

D-Train said...

I don't know you either, but love your postings. Congratulations!