Saturday, October 13, 2007

More Comfortable

"Step one you say we need to talk. He walks, you say, 'sit down it's just a talk.' He smiles politely back at you. You stare politely right on through. Some sort of window to your right, as he goes left and you stay right between the lines of fear and blame, and you begin to wonder why you came" (The Fray).
Thursday I had an awesome time meeting even more of you mohos. (Thank you so much AtP) I also watched my first real "R" rated movie. (Passion of the Christ doesn't count). We watched V for Vendetta. It was good, but very political. I felt a billion times more comfortable with myself that night.

Today I decided to tell my roommate. He was suspicious, and I wanted to tell him rather than having him just find out. He took it so well. He didn't flinch at all. He was very understanding, and he hasn't treated me any different. He didn't even give me a lecture about the plan of salvation. He just talked and was there for me. I wish my parents had reacted like he did.

Tonight I watched the first three episodes of Heroes season 2. IT WAS AWESOME! The themes speak for themselves. I watched it with Romulus and Remus and Mulan. I just felt so comfortable- again! I could be myself. It was so weird not worrying about motives or how I appeared or being found out. With every passing day I get more and more comfortable being me.
"Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness, and I would have stayed up with you all night had I known how to save a life" (The Fray).

6 comments:

Potentate said...

Yeah, it feels good.

draco said...

I understand completely! Everyone deserves to not feel embarrassed about who they are.

mulan said...

I'm so glad you came over! Darned brainwashers... we'll turn you into an alien yet! Be proud of who you are! :)

iwonder said...

I think that is one of the best films ever. I love it so much. It always makes me cry and very happy at the same time.

Kengo Biddles said...

1) I love V for Vendetta.

2) I own other R-rated movies, but I'm very choosy.

3) It's so refreshing to just be one's self, and not worry about everything, as you said. Miki commented I seemed a lot more at ease after we'd all hung out for Sunday Morning Conference.

Foxx said...

I watched the first 3 episodes of Hereoes this weekend too!

Now I'm hooked. Again. Not that I'm surprised. :)